Pull That Trigger

I have one more shot to go...my HCG shot (aka "trigger shot"), which will hopefully trigger ovulation! We went back to the doctor this morning, and it turned out to be quite an interesting trip. First, let me say that I was not expecting very good news. I don't why, but I wasn't. I honestly thought that today would be the day they decided to cancel my cycle. Even with this feeling, I was doing okay emotionally. God will take care of us; He always does. If I'm meant to have a child, I will, despite taking 1 or 2 pills a day or this or that medicine. It will happen if/when God has planned. I was at peace with whatever news we were going to leave the hospital with this morning. A few months ago I had confided in one of my very good friends that I feel so incredibly nervous every time we make our final turn to get to the hospital. I've left with bad news so many times now that I feel sick when I see the place. She said to just keep reminding myself that one day I'll leave there with good news, and on another good day I'll leave with my newborn baby in the back seat. Those wise words have helped calm me many mornings now. However, I was just jittery this morning. When we got to the doctor's office, they took blood to test my estrogen level and do an insulin test. Sometimes PCOS women are insulin resistant. I don't think that I am, but they wanted to check to be sure. Then they did the ultrasound. My lining is thick, I have one big follicle and one medium follicle on my right, and a couple pretty small ones on my left. Everything is good enough to move on to the next step. Yippee! :)

Tonight I get my trigger shot, and we'll find out tomorrow if we'll be having an IUI or working on our goal with some degree of privacy, romance, and normalcy.