Not Alone

I have said it, and every other girl I know who has suffered or is suffering from infertility has said it: You just feel so alone. When this first started, I felt that this was not only the hardest thing I had ever gone through, but it was the loneliest. How could anyone understand how I felt? Everyone I know who has children conceived them with little effort or without meaning to. They certainly wouldn't understand what I was going through. My sweet husband couldn't understand the emotional heartache and guilt I felt over not being able to give him a child in our time schedule. I just felt all alone. However, I have learned that is not true. There are so many women going through infertility struggles of their own, and they understand every tear, every bad day, every fear, every disappointment.

God blessed me with two women in particular last year (two moms in my class) who had endured what I was going through, and they each had healthy children of their own. Oddly enough, both of them used the same RE, who is the same one I started seeing in January (6 months into our efforts to conceive). Coincidences like that don't just happen. That's a God thing. God brought these women into my life, and God led me to this particular RE. She is incredible, and I trust her completely. I know she's going to take good care of us through this. That same year, God brought me a friend-a new teacher at my school, and she has PCOS. She was the first person I had heard of having that. She's not to the point of trying to have a baby, but she was a great person to have in my life to help explain this issue to me. God wasn't done though, he brought me another person who has gone through these struggles and is currently pregnant. It is so comforting to know people who have walked this journey, and it is even more comforting to know women who are now mothers after walking this journey.

If anyone who is going through infertility issues happens to stumble across my blog, I pray that you'll find comfort in knowing you are not alone.