Our Life

Karl and I have been married for almost 3 years, so we’ve been getting the same question from a lot of people lately… “When are you going to have a baby?” Well, we’re working on it! We started trying to get pregnant at the beginning of July, and by September we knew something wasn’t right. My cycles were becoming longer and longer, much like they were before I got on birth control. I went to the doctor at the end of September, and we found out I have polycystic ovary syndrome. When I got on the internet and started reading about it, I was devastated! All I have ever wanted is to have children and be a mom, and this diagnosis was a hard pill to swallow. Luckily, what I was reading on the internet was the worst case scenario. PCOS can mean a lot of different things, but for me it means I don’t ovulate each month like most women do. As my doctor put it, I have a communication problem between my brain and my ovaries. We don’t know when I do ovulate either, which makes getting pregnant very complicated! Each day since the day I found out about this has been an emotional struggle. We started fertility treatments at the beginning of November. I have taken medicine each month to help me start a new cycle and taken varying levels of Clomid, a fertility drug that is supposed to make you ovulate. So far, I have not responded to the Clomid, but I’m getting ready to take the highest possible dosage (200 mg) in hopes of it working this time.
I am starting this blog for a few different reasons. First, this will keep everyone updated on what we’re going through; second, I have found tremendous comfort in other people’s blogs who have gone through similar situations, and I hope to be a source of comfort for someone else. Lastly, I don’t want to forget this experience. It’s so easy to block out bad things, and this is by far and away the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through. I believe in my heart that God will fulfill this desire and we will have a happy ending, so now I want to make sure I don’t forget what we’ve gone through to get there. I trust that God led us down this road for a purpose and that there are valuable lessons to be learned; God is changing our hearts through this, and that is a precious (although painful) gift.