...because my child had gone on a nursing strike
...because my child had a weird rash-like thing on his face, and I didn't know what it was
...because my child had a diaper rash, despite the layers of Desitin I apply constantly in an effort to prevent this
...because my child still doesn't nap great or sleep through the night, and I can't bring myself to let him "cry it out"
...because my child and I are Babywise dropouts/flunkies (hence the not napping or sleeping through the night)
...because most days (hours, minutes, and seconds) I don't feel like I know what the heck I'm doing...
Just when I started to let all that get to me, my little boy reached for his mama to hold him. It was better than the first smile. I might not know what I'm doing 9 times out of 10, but Cooper doesn't seem to mind, too much at least.
Last night Karl was holding him, and I held my hands out to him, and then he leaned away from Karl and reached both arms toward me. Oh, how it made me smile, and all those doubts really didn't seem to matter anymore.
Oh, Allison. This is so sweet! You are such a good mama, I just know it! I have been really impressed with how you are handling everything and how "together" you are. I hope to be as good of a mom as you! Looking forward to seeing you and your little man in a couple of weeks!
ReplyDeleteMegan
:) I love this. You're doing great as a mama, and Cooper is so blessed that you're his. Hang in there when you feel like a failure because there is no perfect method to any of those things. It's about living and learning and loving that precious boy. I think you're doing just fine! see you soon!
ReplyDeleteI cant believe how much he's growing up- he's reaching! You are an awesome mama... Between you and Karl, Coop couldn't have been blessed with better parents :) see you soon.
ReplyDeleteMelissa